I really dont know what is going on anymore
I feel so alone and lost
Melissa and I have come to trems with our situation what she is doing is best for her and us. I am hapy for that and maybe someday swe can revist what we had but for now this is the right thing to do and it is going to really help her.
I wanted to focus on my marriage with tracy and really see what I could do to improve things on that front but given what has cometo light I dont feel like I can.
She constantly cuts me down and belittles me behind my back and is sweet as pie to my face and when confronted with it she gets all pissy and angry about it.
she is not being honest with me and I dont know where I stand
By the way to keep out the ugly trolls this journal is friends only..... so suck it.